My Reduction

A recount from the decision to the recovery!

May 4th, 2006

Okay I managed to get online today, it's just taking some time for me really want to do anything.  I seem to be really sore and I hate the way my right Boob looks!!! it's really pissing me off.  They took more from the right so I knew It may look different but it sucks!!!!!!!  I can't seem to make myself like it at all.  I posted some new pics and changed the layout.  Me posting on here actually helps with the depression so I think I just may continue doing it.  The pain in my chest is bad, I think I may either still have the pneumonia or am getting it again.  I am going to go to the doctors tomorrow and see.  That could be what's making me down really!! Just not feeling well can make anyone down.

May 2nd, 2006

You have all been great, but I am taking a small break from the site (well maybe).  I am just warning you I may not post for a bit.  I will catch up when I can.  I am just not doing well.  Dont' get me wrong, I am healing wonderfully however I am more depressed every day that goes by.  If I didn't mention it before.........well at least I am now.  I need to work on myself right now and just focus on getting better in that department.  I do have history, and I think thats why I am not bouncing back like I would like to.  Anyway I hope you all still check in.  I will try and post when I can but for now not promising anything. 

May 1st, 2006

Hello all!!! it's been a bit.  I woke up this morning and felt really good today.  Thank God!! I have had a rough few.  I am still very emotional, but I think it's because I had depression years ago, so now it's kinda hard to just turn it off when it comes back.  No medication for me though!! I will never take that stuff again!! It's a personal decision, but for me I had more of a hard time on Anti depressants than off of them.  I found that good old support and lots of sleep and crying do the trick.  On the meds I felt more like I was sinking further and further than I ever felt.  Believe me!! I have tried them all!!!  So this time, I know it's the surgery, I know that it will go away, and I know that life is really not that bad.  One day at a time!! 

Anyway, the bruising is going away, I am still sore, but hey I am only heading into the 4th week post op.  I have a long long way to go!!! I feel good, however the soreness really is getting to be a bother.  I just want to be back to normal NOW!!! LOL.  I have had to remove my link to my personal site as apparently with a certain browser you can retrieve all my personal info!!! So until the situation is resolved I will not be linking my sites together.